Letting Go And Letting You

Today, I have decided to open my hand.
To let go of something I have been holding on to.
I am now untieing the strings
that so easily entangles my heart
from all the hurt and the sorrow that I have.
I am now surrendering every desire
to the One that my heart should desire now, and forever.

I am deciding to choose the unpopular decision.

I am choosing to let go of my desires,
And allow my heart to desire what is eternal.
I am choosing to not be motivated by selfish impulses,
And allow all the selfishness be covered with selflessness.
I am deciding to stop manipulating situations and people,
Consciously or unconsciously, intentional or not.
For I am not solely in control of this trek.

To the Captain of this journey
And the Wheelman of this ship,
Here it is.
Clasp on the reel and hound the quest,
The wheel is yours to take.
For I don't want this journey to end in a shipwreck.
I would rather trust the unknown than regret the latter.

For my heart will rest joyfully knowing
That it is not me,
Or my hands,
Or my crazy tactics,
That manipulated it all.
To the Author and Perfecter of every story,
Here's the pen,
Here is my hand,
Here are my desires,
Take it and I will let You be You.
I will let you write every line of the whole story.

I can choose to be in control,
To steer the wheel and take this journey
To where I wish it to go.
But the revelation of my imperfections and my incompetence,
Allows me to recognize that You should be in control.
The unanswered questions and the what if's
Maybe as vast as the ocean
As the journey goes along.
But I will rest more calmly because
There maybe more questions than answers,
There may be more uncertainities than clarity,
But this is the decision I will never regret;
Choosing the One Certain thing in this world.
That is You,
and Your will,
To reign over me and over it all.

Today, I am letting go and I am letting You.